QA_Pivot

Christy  

It's Another week, another Tuesday and another episode of hopefully your favorite podcast, a witch, a mystic and a feminist. Welcome to this week's I don't know, chaotic pivot of an episode. We don't know exactly what we're going to get into. So you should really listen. Because it could be a lot

Jamie  

 Buckle up buttercup. We're coming for you.

Christy  

But mom is here with us. So that's exciting here. Yay. I know. Yeah, but it's been a morning that's that's just it's been a morning. Like we yeah, there's always technology issues. There's there's always something so buckle up better app. Let's do it. 

Marlena

Hey, Mama.

Deb G

Hello there.

We are going to have some questions and answers like we did last year. I don't remember what we called the episode but that's what I'm calling it right now. Questions and answers.

Jamie  

now refer to it as the episode where Marlena wants a monkey tail or whatever it was.

Marlena  

I want a monkey tail.

Deb G  

Yeah, and this is this is completely last minute.

Marlena  

Strangely, I saw on Tik Tok recently something about getting in touch with your inner child. And then a monkey tail came up and I just started laughing. I need to play more.

Deb G  

Right? That's funny. Oh, I did want to tell you guys this. So the other night I had a dream and I don't recall my dreams. Hardly ever right. But I had this dream. And in the dream I saw this bird wing. I mean, this big brown bird wing. So I know is like an eagle or a hawk, some kind of big hawk or, but it was actually darker than a hawk. So and I saw it as I was coming out the front door, but it was just the wing and part of the shadow of the bird. Right but overhead. So then the next day I was walking out the front door Ashlyn was in front of me. She walked out the door, and I saw this shadow and I look up, and there's this turkey vulture, not six feet above her head. And I was like Ash look, she’s like what? It had flown to the lamppost and was sitting on the lamppost with his wings outstretched and drying its wings. But it was in all its glory. It was so awesome. But it didn't even register with me about the dream. Until about 15 minutes later, I was like, Oh, my God, that was it. Okay,

Marlena  

You had a premonition. Mama. Ah, that is awesome. Yeah, what would have happened if a Lexus saw it?

Deb G  

If it was six feet above her head, she would have taken it down.

Marlena  

She would have ran. Strangely, last night, Alexis and I, we were talking and she got this new shadow workbook that she's been doing. But she started talking about her fear of birds so that we were talking about past lives and stuff like that. Maybe something with a bird. I was like, Maybe you were attacked by like a dinosaur bird. She that's what are you saying? I was a caveman? Like, maybe she was like, we're humans around with dinosaurs. I was like, I don't know.

Jamie  

Or maybe you ask her she would know.

Marlena  

It was just funny. And so like you talking about the bird than the bear talking about the bird last night? And yeah, it's just all but you had a premonition. And that is so fucking cool.

Deb G  

It was bizarre. Yeah.

Jamie  

And that you matched it up together. Because sometimes that doesn't even like hit you till much later. No, that like, oh my gosh,

Deb G  

Yeah, I was just driving along. And then all of a sudden, and I remembered I was like, Oh my God, that's it. And Dawn's looking at me like, What?

Christy  

Have any of you ever had a recurring dream? That's come true. No, no, no.

Jamie  

Have you?

Christy  

I  have, I’ve had many, many, especially when I was younger. I have. Yeah. And the first one was, gosh, I must have been like in sixth grade because it was had to do with like a kid sitting on a Raeleen on a ramp that went like up into our classrooms. And the dream was that the kid flipped back and hit their head on the cement block art and they had to go the hospital but they were okay. So every single night it was the same dream, the same dream in the same spot, but I couldn't see the kid's face and it was saved to him. It was really scary, right? Because I'm like, that could maybe that's me. And then the dream stopped for about a week. And then it happened to a kid. And that was like the first time that I remember going was the father's times like I drempt that so then I thought I made it come true. That was like instant you know, I'm like it's external might come true. And am I good, man. So I've had I've had a couple I've had a cut like I pass amazing.

Jamie  

Yeah, that's crazy. That was yeah,

Marlena  

that you like only the good stuff.

Jamie  

Yeah. I had been meaning to tell you guys. What happened to me a few weeks ago. It had to do with a dream. So it's funny that you bring this up mom. You guys all know we've talked about how I'm very good about blocking things because I get very scared. And I and so I've been working on that I've been working on it over the last year and just making sure that I keep the positive white light close and that you know, bad entities are out. And I think because I'm starting to open that door a little bit more things are starting to happen and I had a dream it was actually when we were at Resorts World I don't know if we should keep that in or not but Resorts World for our anniversary. And our third night there I was having this dream again of and I've had these dreams where it's like something's trying to come like I don't want to say attack me but like scare me. Like there's something there that just doesn't feel good. I don't quite see faces, but I'm keeping them away. And I remember my dream like you're not welcome here you, you know, positive energy only white light, you know, I'm surrounded, I'm protected. I just kept remember telling. And I had in my dream. I remember just something kept trying to force themselves on me, if you will not like in a physical sense, but coming at me. I remember specifically waking up in the hotel room, opening my eyes because I was I was startled. And there was I'm not even kidding. It was like this black fuzzy mass, if you will, it almost look like scribbles. Like, like on a sketch board. And it was like this ball. And I remember looking at it and it floating up. And it happens so quick. And I remember sitting there in my bed going. I'm not scared. I'm not scared. I'm not scared. I'm good. I'm good. This is okay. You know, protect me my guardian angels. Like I started like, right, praying and like, and just you know, right asleep like right now. It's just given me the chills. And like I Oh, okay, and I just lay there like it's okay. It's okay. You did you did the right thing went away. Yeah, everything is fine. Everything is fine. Was it? Oh my god. It was

Christy  

like, yeah,

Jamie  

it was dark. The the best way I can describe it is scribbles. Like if you're scribbling on a sketch board. And it was this kind of ball of scribbly black mess. That literally when I opened my eyes, it floated up and it disappeared. creepy, right? Like it was creepy. Yeah. But that I took it as a positive in the sense of I'm starting to let down my guard a little bit. And that can bring in different things. Right. So as long as I keep the right energy around me and present and, and tell the bad things about energies to go away that they will. And so I took it as a positive don't get me wrong. I don't think I slept after that. But But I did take it as a positive like, Okay, starting to let your guard down a little bit and showing you that you can ward off the wrong things. So yeah, I told you the next morning, I'm proud of our school taunted. He's all shut up. He said it's too new to be haunted. I'm like stuff. It could be on the land. Right? Yeah, those are dream stories.

Deb G  

I keep myself protected. Right. I mean, I do ask for protection every day. And not everybody believes that. Right? I mean, a lot of mediums and whatnot. They don't believe that they have to do that. But, you know, I'm just like, better safe than sorry.

Jamie  

Same.

Christy  

Well, Jamie, I just wanted to say I'm proud of you. Because some people would be like, Oh, I'm starting to let things in. Not happening again. I'm shutting Yeah. Right. Like that would have been kind of like, no, not happening again. So that you took it as a positive. I mean, I don't know if I would have been able to do because

Jamie  

all Jamie would have been like talking here. Not okay. Not okay.

Deb G  

Yeah, that would have gave me pause. For sure. Right. Yeah. And not these kinds of paws. Yes.

Marlena  

Speaking of pause. How’s Zeus?

Deb G  

Zeus, is cool. I got a, I got a new dog the other day. That's actually where we were going when ash was in the car with me. We went and got a little he's Chihuahua and Shibu. That’s what they say he is but he is very chill. I mean, super chill.

Marlena  

So he doesn't have the Chihuahua.

Deb G  

We haven't even heard him bark yet. So, but he's adjusting right.. Yeah, he went straight from the place he was living with his people to us, right. So there was no transition, he didn't go to the shelter or anything. They had to give him up because they were moving and couldn’t take him. Gotcha. So one of Ashlyn’'s friends told us about him anyway. Yeah. So he's a senior. He's eight or nine. So he's my pace, right? I mean, we can walk and he won’t pull me? Yeah, so, so so far, so good. So I think he's gonna be a good member. And welcome. Zeus. Yeah, exactly. You guys know I lost Gilbert a few weeks ago. And it's not funny. I But I'm laughing because ever since he passed away, there's this bird that's on the fence all the time, right? This sparrow, and it comes every single day. He's out there multiple times a day almost almost every time I look out the window he’s there. So So yeah, so I named the bird Gilbird. Adorable because I said Gilbert did you bring this bird. Is that you?

Jamie  

Yeah. That's awesome.

Deb G  

All right. I guess we can start now.

Jamie  

Random story.

Christy  

Sure.

Marlena  

That was interesting. I'm like, Yeah, I don't have anything with dream.

Deb G  

No dreams at all. You have anything else? Nope. All right.

Marlena  

I got new tarot decks. Yay,

Deb G  

That's right. That's right. Oh, yeah, that's it.

Jamie  

Okay, bring on these questions. We have no idea what we're answering.

Deb G  

So Christie's right next to me on this, right. So it's Christie Marlena Jamie. And that's the order. I'm gonna go. Okay. All right. Would you rather be able to teleport anywhere, or be able to read minds? And please let me know if I've asked a question before. Because my memory sucks.

Christy  

I don't. I don't know if we would know. Besides the monkey tail. Yeah, you know,

Marlena  

I remember. I will remember.

Christy  

But I am going to teleport, like, ever since I saw the Jetsons. And that was my show. And Star Trek. Let's be honest. But I wanted to teleport everywhere. Because you could go anywhere. And you could have friends, like, you know, in Europe and go see them like in two seconds. Right? reading minds. I feel like would come back to bite me. I don't want to know what you all are thinking. I don't that I don't need to know that. And then like, yeah, it's too much information. I don't think like my I just don't think I can handle that. So teleporting for sure. That would get me all around the world in a blink. And I would love that.

Marlena  

See, I don't like people enough.

Jamie  

But I want to know what they're making. Yeah, but I want to know what

Deb G  

teleport and you can go anywhere. Right? I mean, you were that anywhere? Yep. Norway right now what I

Jamie  

would travel more if I could tell you. Because I don't like the getting there part. I don't. I remember why I won't. That's like I don't like to. Yeah, and

Christy  

you waste how many days traveling, you know, depending on where you're going. But yeah, the reading of the minds. I think I'd have fun in the beginning. And then I think I'd get exhausted, it would be too much information for me.

Marlena  

I have to know everything. So I'm like, I'm going with I would want to read minds. I'm fine with getting on the plane and getting there getting home is what sucks for me. But it's an

Deb G  

all the time and you hear everybody?

Jamie  

Yeah. Like being well, I

Marlena  

mean, just like with psychics and mediums, you know, you have your on and off hours and your boundaries and that. So I would think that that would kind of be the same thing where I'm like, Okay, well, I'm not going to pay attention from this time to this time. I would assume that's a skill you know, that like psychics and mediums and

Christy  

Well, I think so Marlena, I just had a vision like so if you were a mind reader, you would probably be working with like the FBI, or like some sort of command. Because then you'd be able to like your read everybody's mind and like, determine if this person was going to commit a crime or if this you know, like, those kinds of things. So you'd have arrows show. Be fun. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. So that's where I see that going.

Marlena  

Unless I used my powers for you know, to be in my villain era,

Christy  

so I use my powers for evil and then and then I would have to teleport around the world to try to stop you. Oh,

Marlena  

so I mean, it would be fun. It would

Jamie  

I'll just be traveling teleporting for leisure I'm

Christy  

getting visions of where in the world is Carmen

Deb G  

What if you could teleport to other planets? That would be awesome.

Christy  

Oh, that would

Jamie  

be on say of oxygen. Yeah.

Are you using your body?

Marlena  

I don't think you would be using your body right? I don't know.

Deb G  

I guess once again, you might need your body. Right? Like yeah, like when you

Marlena  

astral project and you know.

Deb G  

I think when thinking too much about

Marlena  

projection, you know you're using your body. So trimming is It teleporting and

Jamie  

analyzing really. Yeah.

Deb G  

I don't know. It's question was, I mean, I guess

Marlena  

I still would rather read minds.

Christy  

If you're teleporting for leisure, maybe you do, you'd need your body. So that's an option, right? Please send my body to and then if you're not the night, you know, like I just want to go to a planet and like be there, then you know, I just want my, my soul to be there, my spirit to be there, cool. Choose your options, choose your own adventure.

Marlena  

At the same time like as we are making this shit up as we go like I have when I'm reading minds, I have open and closed hours. You can bring your body or not bring your body, whatever you want to do.

Deb G  

Love it. All right. Next question. Marlena. Okay, mom, would you rather be able to fly or talk to animals who talk to animals?

Marlena  

I mean, I already talked to animals, they just don't necessarily talk back. Although I really do think that with my dogs, they that telepathy? Like I truly believe that I know what they're thinking. I think that's

Deb G  

the assumption of this question, though, is that you're talking back and forth, not just you talking to the animal.

Marlena  

I'm like, Well, I do talk back and forth. I just happen to say, what are what I think they're thinking. That's not weird.

Jamie  

She's just translating for them.

Marlena  

Exactly. No, I'm afraid of heights. So I totally would want to talk to him. But also, I love animals. So I would definitely just want to be able to communicate with animals and have a full on conversation. Capo right now is like Bitcoin looking at me, and I'm sleeping. Don't get me involved in this. That's what she's thinking and see, I do it already. It's just

Deb G  

similar to the teleporting question, except that you're actually taking in all the sights as you're flying to the next destination. I'm assuming. I don't know. I'm just making sure that you know,

Marlena  

can you imagine like being a hawk, right, and, you know, up in the air and seeing everything, you know, like, I'm not one that wants to jump out of a plane or anything like that, because of my fear of heights. And I'm 100% Okay with that fear. But I love animals. And so I would love to be able to have full on conversations with animals.

Christy  

Do you think that if you could have conversations with a bear per se that you could be friend that bear?

Marlena  

Yes. Unless that bear is fucking grumpy and is like, yeah, I want nothing to do with you human. And then I'd be like, okay, cool. I'm just gonna walk away. You know, please don't eat me. And he's like, I'm totally going to eat you. You are running

Deb G  

in hibernation start running.

Marlena  

Yeah. You know, but at the same time, like, if I can talk to animals. Can I hear them coming? And like, start that conversation? You know, I'm gonna hide over here because Grumpy Bear right there that just woke up and is hungry for you know, me. Yeah, I'm out. You know. So yeah.

Jamie  

My back. So how far is your rain? Mind reading and talk to animals? She's got the good combo, because she could read the mind of the bear who's like I'm starving.

Marlena  

Because again, yeah, I have to know everything. Yeah, I get it. And I wouldn't say it's like a 30 mile range. Because then I'd be like, you know, you haven't hearing all the words. Like I'd be happy

Christy  

to have the on and after hours again. Right. So yeah, sorry.

Deb G  

Careful with the off hours. Yeah. The

Christy  

hours that could be a bear lurking and you're off

Jamie  

night snack, and you turned it off.

Christy  

You turned it off at midnight. He was just waiting for you knowing that you turn it off at midnight.

Deb G  

Exactly. And he's like, Well, I hunt at night. So this works for you.

Marlena  

I'm asleep at night in my house. So I mean, unless he has thumbs to be able to open my doors. I'm good.

Deb G  

But that back to the flying part. You guys ever see the tiktoks where they put the cameras on? Like the Eagles are Hawks. Oh, yeah. That's cool to watch out. I

Marlena  

have not seen them. I mean, it's really cool. From video video. Yeah. To be

Deb G  

able to see what they see. Right? Yeah, it's pretty cool. Totally.

Jamie  

I think if I knew I could fly successfully, I probably wouldn't be so scared of heights. I might choose some flying power. I do like the talking to animals though. Because I wanna talk to my dog and not necessarily bears in the wild that want to eat me but you know, just communicate with my local group, your local gang. It's all good. But I think if I knew I could fly safely, and I'm good at it. How Cool, like, like go places and see things for like an eagle eyes? Yeah, that's cool. Yeah. So

Marlena  

then you would teleport and flying? You don't?

Christy  

Absolutely because again depending on what you want for the day do you just want to go say like, you know enjoy an afternoon in flight you know then a cool you could be away from people

Jamie  

and I think they'd be teleporting stations right so you go to one station Yeah, like a bus stop or something. So like I started

Christy  

track coffee

Jamie  

you have to get off at the station and then everywhere and then to your to your station where we go, just saying,

Christy  

Oh my God. I'm just imagining I have some sort of wings after that after I get off the stop and like my wings.

Deb G  

Okay, I have to ask this question. Alright, Jamie. Oh, cheese, would you rather be the funniest person in the room? Or the most intelligent?

Jamie  

Wait a minute, I saw that question. I am the final person in the room already.

Deb G  

I can ask this to any of you. So I'm going to go with most intelligent. And for those of you that don't know, this is a debate on this podcast. Who's the funniest one? The funniest? Yeah.

Jamie  

Actually, in all honesty, I would probably pick funniest person in the room just because I am a people person, I want to have a good time and just laugh and talk and can be dumb or smart. I don't really care. I just want to connect with people. So the funniest person in the room is where I would go with that.

Christy  

Yeah, I also think that sometimes if you were the most intelligent, you might not connect with people, right? Because not everyone's going to be on your level. So you might find it hard.

Jamie  

You looking down on them are so stupid. I have

Christy  

your high brow humor. Those over there. Hi, I

Marlena  

am in the room with continuously people that are like the smartest people in the room. And I'm just like, and I don't feel dumb around them. But I'm just like what you were saying Christie? There's no connection there. Yeah, they have just a different way of thinking. And yes, some people will look down on me and I'm just like, Okay, well, I'm not as smart as you but I can kick your

Christy  

butt. Right.

Deb G  

Yeah, there you go.

Marlena  

In the wild

Jamie  

I think there's different forms of intelligence. Right. I mean, you could

Marlena  

they lack common sense.

Jamie  

Street. Yeah. So I can be the funniest person in the world and still be very intelligent in like, I don't know, bad dreams when things like trying to attack you. I mean, so I just think funniest person because you get to connect with others more on that level than you do when you think you're smarter than everyone else. And like,

Marlena  

Yeah, I'm still the funniest person in the room. Okay, so that's a question for our listeners. Who do you think is funnier? Jamie Christie and myself?

Deb G  

That is a good question.

Christy  

See, I think I'm a sneaky funny. I don't think like I present as like 70 person. Yeah. And think I'm a subtle funny, but you know,

Jamie  

we're just outright in your face Funny. Funny. I don't know.

Christy  

I just, I don't think people expect it up. I would agree a lot of times. Yeah. And then and then. Yeah. And then they're like, Oh, she's kind of funny.

Marlena  

You're kind of funny. Whereas I'm,

Christy  

oh. I'm hella funny. Okay.

Jamie  

Appellate funny. Okay.

Deb G  

And the listeners till where we are based off of the word Ella.

Jamie  

I'm from NorCal. So I get to say, I own that word. You too. All

Deb G  

right, Christy. Would you rather visit 100 years in the past? or 100 years in the future? deeper question.

Christy  

Oh, gosh. Yeah. I think both are, I don't know, like I initially wanted to say future because then I would know the things in the future, but then that could also be detrimental to me. So knowing things that like happened or like would happen to my loved ones or whatever, like I don't know if I'd want to know all of that, per se. So the past would be fascinating, but I probably would get really really fucking pissed at how like minorities and women and everybody was treated and that wouldn't be fun either. So I I think probably the future I'm gonna I'm gonna go with future and all that entails because I, I think I might be able to get like unified didn't want to find out. I don't have to go look at records, right. Like, I don't have to go look that up. But I could just kind of like observe what was going on what things had changed if the world was still?

Jamie  

Yeah, yeah.

Christy  

Like what's your you know? Yeah. So yeah, I think the future

Jamie  

the future, the future might be like on Mars when you get there. You could it could be. Yeah, tomorrow's because Oh, Earth is gone? Yeah, no fear here.

Christy  

I would teleport.

Jamie  

What about you, Elaine? Well, I

Marlena  

think the past would be interesting, because, you know, what we know about the past is what has been presented to us, which I don't necessarily believe is the truth. True. It's just the perception of one side, right. And so to really see what has taken place in our past, to be able to change the future. Um, that's not going to

Christy  

be one of my questions. Can we change the past?

Marlena  

Well, it's our question. So

Christy  

I know why. No, no. Yeah. So like, if you could go back in the past and change things, right, change some things, so that our present and our future was better than of course. So even if you bet if it was just observation, but

Marlena  

if it is just observation, I mean, at the same time, you're seeing what is truly taking place in the past, versus being told the winners side, you know, the winner of the war or the winner of whatever, you know, their side and their perception, you're actually truly seeing what is taking place. Now you have that perception in the presence, that your knowledge can help change the perception of other people.

Christy  

Yeah, and if I if I went back to the past I would also have to be able to teleport different places in the past. So I don't know.

Jamie  

I don't think they have the stations back.

Christy  

Okay. Well, then I'd have to be able to fly I guess, fly and land. Land because because if I want to see like the different I don't even countries it 100 years ago, I need some way to travel that way and efficiently. So teleportation or flying would be the best way to go. Yeah. All right. But that wasn't

Deb G  

part of the move on. See, I'm funny. Thanks for your

Marlena  

You are funny. You're just not.

Christy  

I was waiting for you to say you're kind of you're kinda

Deb G  

All right. Let's move on. Sorry. Are we done? Can we can we? Yeah. The next question. All right. Yes. Oh, yeah.

Marlena  

Like, are we done recording?

Christy  

I think we've got like, 10 more minutes. I don't know.

Deb G  

Okay, if money Oh, Marlena. if money were not an issue at all, how would you spend your days?

Marlena  

Oh, okay, this is going back to animals. And this is actually a dream of mine that I know, I've discussed with all of you or some of you. But I want a ranch. I want a rescue of dogs. And I want to ranch and I want to be able to take care of animals. And so I would just be rescuing animals. And that's how I would spend my day. Oh, I love that. That's really what I want to do. I just want to be around animals all the time. And take care of them and make sure that they're safe. And you know, take all of the dogs out of the rescues. And those that get along together. We have the playdates with them and the ones that don't get along we I work with them separately, and yeah, that's what I want to do. They just want to be the boss all the time. Yeah, I can read that for you. And, and my ranch would be called the foster field ranch.

Jamie  

Oh, ah, I like that.

Christy  

I like that.

Marlena  

I'm like, I already have it. Like that's, that's my dream

Christy  

thing. You just need the land. I just need a money. Yeah, yeah, my head.

Marlena  

So yeah, that's what I would do all day. I would feed my dogs. I play with my dogs. I'd walk my dogs. I'd go on hikes all the time. And yeah, I just I love that owner. Yeah, all the dogs. What about you guys? What would you do if money were not an issue?

Jamie  

I would travel I have found that I do like to travel and like I said, it's the getting there and getting home. And if money wasn't an issue, then I could make Chad why me? the fanciest business class or whatever, in comfort and I wouldn't bat an eye at how much it costs. So I would definitely travel more and then travel obviously with the kids and just see the world I can have my own plane have

Christy  

your own plane exam anyone

Jamie  

options Yeah, I would do that. Yeah.

Marlena  

Well, yeah, I mean, like I definitely would travel to, but my everyday life would be just with animals.

Christy  

Yeah. Just mainly dogs, mainly dogs. And animals, you could mind read and talk to, right? Yeah. Yeah. Because you'd also be kind of like Snow White, because I feel like there'd be birds and stuff that animals. Yeah, like they'd be hanging around. Well, hawks

Marlena  

hang around me like Gilbert. Like, Gilbert,

Christy  

yeah. What about you, Christy? I'm thinking because, like, so travel is huge for me. But like, every day, I feel like a lot of it would be and I don't have like a very clear vision of this, but a lot of it would be giving back in some way, like, so it would be, especially with people. So be giving back with people. I'm thinking like, teenagers, that kind of age group. But even so, like, you know, women, like just a safe space for women, and whoever needs a safe space would probably be something that I would create. And then, you know, when I'm not doing all that I would travel all over the world, you'd

Marlena  

have a pupils Ranch,

I would have not a call or not saying I'm having a call. That sounds very odd.

Jamie  

We, but yeah, maybe

Christy  

like, maybe like a people retreat, you know, like or something like that. And yeah, so

Jamie  

I would say, I was thinking broad. I wasn't thinking like day to day, because honestly, when mom asks a question on my day to day, like, what would that look like? And I have always talked about with Chad, that if we had the money, and I could stay home, even though I work from home, but not have to work. I've always wanted to foster kids, or adopt. But not infants. No offense. Yeah, infants out there. But um,

Christy  

is there listening?

Jamie  

Fanning the infant. But I would want like an older child, like a 12 1314 might be a little more difficult mentally. But I've always said that I wanted to adopt. So you mentioned that Christina made me think like, I would love to foster or adopt older children if I had the time to actually spend with them. Because of the extra needs they might need. Yeah. And of course, the money and the house to come along with it. Yeah. So yeah, you may think of that. I was like, Oh, it was always something I shouldn't say we I talked about with Chad Chad just looks at me crazy. Like what more kids yeah, not kid like older kids.

Christy  

Older. Older kids. Yeah. Like down with the infant.

Jamie  

relation. Down with the infants. No, on toddlers, we're going, going 1212 minutes.

Christy  

Sounds like a vote no on toddlers.

Jamie  

I'm not a baby hater. Don't take this the wrong way. listeners. I love babies. Oh, that's the other thing I would do. I want to be a smuggler. I've always wanted to be a NICU Snuggler Oh, because then you get the baby love and you put them back and you know, I don't need to bring the baby home. Yeah, Chad's like, you'd want to bring all the babies. I'm like, No, I don't. I just want to snuggle them and put them all back and get their

Deb G  

good energy. Yep, that is

Christy  

super, super important, though. Because like, I couldn't go to the NICU with Paxton every day because we live so far away. And so like I relied exclusively on the nurses, you know, when they had time to cuddle, you know him and then I would go in as many times as I could. But yeah, it's important they

Jamie  

go baby smuggler, but adopt older.

Deb G  

Okay, go. Okay, Jamie, would you rather know how you will die or when you will die?

Jamie  

Hmm. Wow. Okay, we went from that conversation to this one. Okay. So wow, that's tough. pivot, pivot.

Deb G  

Paths, Mulligan.

Jamie  

Okay, so I'm gonna say this, and then my answer might change later as we conversate about it. But I would probably say no, how? Because I think if I knew when I would be, as much as I would like to be able to get all the things I'd want to get done before I die. I think that might put too much pressure on me and the counting down to the days I don't I don't know if I could mentally handle that. If I knew how maybe I could prepare myself, my family if I knew like if it was a sickness or something or maybe even try and like Stop it. You know, if it's like some random car crash somewhere, maybe I just don't go in that area at that time. I don't know. I just, I don't know if I can mentally handle counting down the days to my death. So I'm going with that that could change after we talk about this.

Deb G  

That's actually a really good answer. Because that pressure in that anxiety, of knowing when it's going to happen and then like

Jamie  

the guilt of like, yeah, Like, do I tell my family? Do I warn them so they know that we need to spend all this time together before we, you know, my friends, and I don't I don't know if I can mentally handle that. So if I have to choose one or the other, I would say, knowing how

Deb G  

but then if it was like a car crash, then you would be like, Oh, I'm

Jamie  

never getting in a car. I'm never getting in the car afraid

Marlena  

to drive all the time. You're you're living in fear. So yeah, and I don't want to live in fear. But the

Jamie  

fear of that one scenario, if that makes sense, like, I'm not gonna not go out for a walk, if I know I'm gonna die by a car crash, I'm not going to not get an A on a bike, because I'm going to die from a car crash. So fear in that one aspect. And now, if you're telling talking about like an illness, I might start being like, Oh, shit, maybe I shouldn't be doing this, you know, because I'm going to die of a heart attack. So I guess it it's just between the two. For me, that's the lesser of the two evils I guess for me. Yeah. And that could change after we

Christy  

talk. Yeah, for me, I think like, if I knew I was gonna die from a heart attack, there's no real No way. Like, I can live healthier, but I don't know, right? Like that could happen anytime I can be walking down the street, right. So then I have that fear of like, I could walk out this door and now walk back in. So for me, actually, I choose when I died, because I mentally can live more in the moment. And in the present, knowing when so I know, this is my date. So I'm going to live fully presently, now. And I would probably tell my family, right at some point, like, hey, not the exact date, but like, I've got a couple years or whatnot. And like, so we're gonna do the things that we've always wanted to do. It's kind of like for me, like I've thought about, like, if I ever have cancer, it will be a like, I will be doing as much as I can in the time that I'm allowed, like, you know, so that would just I think that just forced me to live more presently, than knowing how I'd be too fearful of like the house, I think we're

Jamie  

all working towards it to I don't want it to be my, my deathbed. To live like that. Right? Like, I think we're all striving for that. Exactly. So I'm hoping that without knowing the exact day that I'm gonna die, that I'm working towards living life, like it's the last one, because already and let's be honest, we don't do that every day, some days are just shit shows. And that's okay. And they're just days and people pick us off on the road. And, you know, we're not doing all the right things. But I don't know, I just, I think about like Sue, and the last four months of her life, we didn't know when it was going to happen. And I don't know if I could put that kind of pressure on my family either. Like I've contemplated like, if I ever get cancer or some detrimental sickness, I struggle with even the thought of telling my family, like, I don't know if I'd want to put that kind of pressure on them. Who knows if I'm ever in that situation, that could be very different. But seeing what everything that people have gone through, it's just, I don't know if I could do that. But Marlena,

Marlena  

um, I wouldn't want to know how, because I would definitely live in fear and I wouldn't be present and I wouldn't be in the moment. And I wouldn't be living my life to the fullest. Whereas if I knew when, versus how, like Christie was saying, I mean, the same thing being a lot more present in that being able to live my life if I knew how I would be so fearful all the time of Oh, am I sick now? Or am I getting in the car crash now I don't want to get into a car I don't want to you know, I don't want to do this sad or whatever, because I might die and now might be the time whereas if I know now is not the time the time is however many years it is or days or weeks or months I can be present in that.

Jamie  

I would like to think if I knew how I was a tough quiet would be trying to live fully. Because you don't know like you said I'm sick today is that and is this it you know so anything could happen literally at any time. It's just you know how it how you die? I don't know I think I struggle with the pressure of knowing how many days I don't know if I could do that to my family to be honest, that's just me.

Marlena  

Then there's me I'm like I'm gonna be dead. So it really just this is part of their life journey. That's part of their path. That's part of what they have to what they have to go through in this life and yeah, their experience their grief, their mourning, and part of their lessons and so you know, when it's my time to go, peace out,

Deb G  

peace out which TV show or movie would you like your life to be like

Christy  

Oh my god. Armageddon Armageddon Ben Affleck he lives Oh, there you go. Oh my gosh, that is Oof. I think that should be marlenas question she

Jamie  

doesn't want to blow up on a meteor

Christy  

No. Oh Bruce Willis. Yeah, he does die. Yeah, yeah. Save the world. He saved the world. Yeah. Saved. And you know, and he saved his daughter's fiance, whatever. So

Jamie  

they'll want to be bent.

Marlena  

Or I'd want to be the guy that like rode the was riding the rocket. Oh my god. Oh god, I can't remember his name.

Deb G  

It's kind of weird last name.

Marlena  

But yeah, I'd want to be him. I want to ride a rocket on or a missile on top of an asteroid because that would be cool. Um, oh. All right. Do

Deb G  

you think you can answer this one? Um,

Christy  

I don't think I can. Honestly I feel like I have to bring up like, you know, Netflix and Hulu to try to like jog my memory. My life is like the

Deb G  

notebook. Do either of you want to answer this question? Jamie? I haven't answered this question you haven't I

Jamie  

have to I have to you to go Eat Pray Love. Definitely. I when I went okay, be it's like, God, it's just all the experiences and her evolution of herself. And then ultimately, finding love. I mean, and I just thought that movie just gets me and eating her way and friendship through Italy and then you know, going to India and doing all the meditation and all and just finding her spirituality again and breaking down and losing it and then building yourself back up and then define this magical place. You know when love like Oh, Eat Pray Love. I'll all day I would love to live that experience. Yeah. And then the other one for me. Honestly, if I can take the drama out of it. But Yellowstone, I would love to have this big, beautiful ranch type style house with the money to have the horses and the farm in the valley and not necessarily need all his land, but just you know, a couple acres would be fine. But a piece of God of the universe, you know, without the noise. I love it here. I love where we live, but I want some peace. So the yellow stone without the drama. There you go. Yeah, I don't need all that drama without

Marlena  

I want to be back. I

Jamie  

want to be I don't need the drama. I just know I can pull out my badness if needed.

Deb G  

All right, awesome. Okay, Christy, we'll get back to you. Or did you want to say anything about that question?

Marlena  

No. Okay. You know, I was making jokes and stuff like that, but like trying to think of a movie. Yeah, it's difficult because I think that I have a pretty blessed life as it is. You know, so to sit there and compare my life or want this want the fiction of, you know, that movie or that television show? I don't. I like my lair. Enough.

Deb G  

Yeah. Fair enough. Very good. All right. We'll see we'll get back to you. Okay, if you could choose anyone in the world alive or dead? Who would you want as a dinner? Guest?

Christy  

Hmm. That's a very broad question. But right now, my pop up who died when I was young. My older brothers got to have a relationship with Him, obviously, because they were older. And I never really got to develop that. So I would love to have him as a dinner guest and really learn from him about his life. And, you know, in his own words, honestly, like, I've heard my grandma's side, you know, but it's kind of all that, like you were saying Marlena, like, you want to go back to the source, right? You want to talk to the sparse and so I would love to really have dinner with him. I think and I mean, that's personal. And then there's like so many other great figures in history, but I'm going to stick to my answer. Yeah,

Marlena  

I love that. I would choose Dolores Cannon. I would want to just pick her brain and again, you know, wanting to know all the knowledge and stuff like that and learn from her and The past life regressions that, you know, that she taught and that she did and finding out more about our purpose, our sole purpose and be able to speak to her one on one about that. That would just be awesome. Yeah, that would be my dinner guest.

Christy  

I think it would be interesting to go and talk to Jesus. I mean, yeah, you know, like and find out if like, all that really happened. You know what I mean? Or like, what was man and what was actually the truth? I think that'd be could be interesting, too.

Jamie  

I'd have to have a dinner party. So I can't answer this question. I can't pick one.

Christy  

Round Table of people. Like Jane Austen, I'd love to have Jane Austen at my dinner table.

Jamie  

Jesus is on the list. So then

Marlena  

who are your dinner guests?

Jamie  

Well, we'll start with Jesus. I'm dead. Definitely my mother in law would love to have her at the table again. Um, I would love to talk to Abraham Lincoln. I would love to pick Martin Luther King Junior's brain. Um, I would love if I felt stupid. But Tyler Henry, who's the Hollywood medium, I absolutely adore that kid. And I would love to have him at the table because he's just amazing. My dad, so we could reconcile some things in person. Um, there's just a list that keeps going on in my head. So

Christy  

that's, that's six. Yeah. And then you can invite my mana and me, right, because we're there. It's cool. And mom, now we're up to nine.

Marlena  

Okay, and so then my Dolores Cannon. So that's,

Jamie  

and I even think of like my brains going to all all the true crime documentaries I watch and like, oh, I would love to talk to that victim and see what really happened in the room. Like, what? What really went down? I think of kidnap victims, like you know what happened and who did it? Like that's where my brains going right now is just Yeah. All over the place.

Christy  

I think that'd be an amazing dinner party. And you did demonstrate you guys

Jamie  

will all be at the table with me. We'll just order pizza. It'll be a fun night. Perfect. Yeah, pizza. Yeah.

Marlena  

Pizza and beers. And then we'll ask you Yes. What? What he'll turn the beer into

Jamie  

wine. I want to watch to see if it's really true. Is everything we've been told true? Or what's going on? Because you know,

Christy  

or is it just a party trick? Jesus? Did

Jamie  

you really come back? Or did you just hide for a few days? Like what really happened? What happened in that

Christy  

aroma? Cave?

Jamie  

I mean, I know it must have sucked to get crucified. But did you really die? Or did you just hobble away trying to rescue yourself? And then you showed up because you were still alive?

Deb G  

Okay, so it's lane, right? Europe? Oh,

Christy  

it is it is like yes, it is.

Deb G  

What makes you nervous?

Marlena  

Everything. Um, not knowing the unknown. I mean, it really does make me nervous i which is why I like need to know everything. I'm Risa recently, my kid been sick, and they were running a fever and they normally don't get sick. And so running in such a high fever, I like went into straight panic mode. And Vince had to like calm me down. But again, that's the the unknown of is my baby going to be okay, and you know, so. But that's something I'm working on as well because I'm not going to know everything and I never do and so, you know, coming to terms with that.

Christy  

Sucks. You brought the questions like full circle, because we started with you like wanting to mind read and now you're what makes you I appreciate that, like wrapped it up really nicely.

Marlena  

But I mean, like, you know, really, that's anything that makes me nervous. It's because of the unknown outcome. If I were to just like quit my job, I would be nervous because Do I have something else? Better greater coming to me? If I were to like when we started this podcast? Am I going to die because people are going to hear my story or hear me speak just in general. You know, so that made me nervous. It's just like the unknown of know what what the end result will be. But at the same time, I am really working on just allowing myself to fall trust and yeah, in trust. I saw this really cool tick tock tick tock, but I saw this really cool tick tock about this guy. seriously talking about falling. And he's like, when you fall, it's not the fall that hurts. It's hitting the ground that hurts. So surround yourself with people that are going to catch you when you fall. And so like he's on stage talking, as he's throwing himself and falling. And at one point, his people up there didn't almost catch him. But they did. And he was like, was I scared that moment? Absolutely. But he's still caught me. You know, and so surround yourself with people that will catch you. And even previously to seeing that tick tock, trusting that the universe has my back. And, and so just continuing along the path of I'm not going to know everything, and I can't control everything. As hard as I try. So live in the moment, because when I'm living in the moment, when I'm being present, I'm not so concerned about the future and the outcome. And, and that's when I find that I'm the most calm.

Christy  

That's my answer. Nice. Minus small talk. I'm not even joking. I

Deb G  

mentioned that before.

Christy  

It is like, Yes, I ate small talk. I hate it. It's so dumb. I don't like nobody really cares. Like, it just, I just, I hate it. And when I have to do it, it takes so much of my energy. And then like in my brain, I'm like, You're not retaining any of this? Am I retaining the I don't know, if I'm going to retain any, like, maybe, you know, I'm like, we talk about something that has a little bit of depth, and just a little bit. And then the minute it shifts, and there's a little bit of depth, I feel myself engage. And it's so much better, but Oh, small talk and knowing that I have to do small Oh, God, that is just like the worst anxiety. That was the worst. It is. I mean, it's like, Brian thrives on that. So like, with this event, we went to recently, I knew him right and to other people, and then knowing that I have to go there, and he's the small talk king, and he can do all that and he thrives in it. And then I'm just like, you know, and I've gotten better over the years I have but man, like I just was like I had to amp myself up and I was like, Katie, it's gonna be small talk. It's gonna be small talk. It's okay. It's alright. It's okay. And then thankfully, like, they're one of the women that I knew, you know, we've met a couple of times, she there was a little bit of depth to our conversation. And I was like, I just need this to recharge myself. And then I can go small talk with you. And you and you. And you. Okay, cool.

Marlena  

Do you think this podcast has helped you with your small talk with your Yeah, yeah, for sure. Yeah. Especially like, with having guests on? Where? You know, for sure. Those initial questions.

Christy  

Yeah, cuz if I could just skip over those initial questions. Like, let's just talk about like, the deep shit, I would totally do that. Like, let's get into it. Like, I want to talk about your life. And I want to hear your trauma. And I want to like share my, tell me all your deep, dark secrets. Like I want to know all that. But yes, I do think this podcast has helped me with that. And it's helped not suck up as much energy as it used to, because it used to leave me so depleted. And then I wouldn't want to be in social situations, you know, unless it was like my core group of people. About you, Jamie,

Jamie  

I am really finding myself struggling with my kid being 16. And the evolution of a teenager, I'm finding that so much when they were little, I couldn't wait for them to grow up so they could do more things for themselves. And now I'm finding I wish they were toddlers again, because it's easier to just chase them around and make them food. And I don't have to worry about heartache and challenges and growing up and driving and car accidents and all the pressures that come along with teenage life. And I know they need these experiences to grow. I know they need these challenges to learn from. But my mom heart is really struggling with it. really struggling with it. And I want to keep all the pain away, even though I know they need to experience pain, mentally, emotionally, I know they need these challenges to grow. And I love seeing my children grow up. I'm loving seeing who they're becoming. I don't like the hard times, I'm struggling. I didn't think I would struggle this bad. And I am. And I'm so fortunate to have my husband who's very much on the other side of the coin. Like they need this. We just need to be there for them. And we need to support them. And we need them to go through these things. Like they need this. We all went through it. They need this and I'm like I know but I can't handle it. So I have a good balance with my husband in getting through these these times. But I am my mom heart is really having a difficult time right now. So presently, that's what makes me nervous. I'm sorry. Yeah, teenage years are tough. I was quick to grow up In high school and like get a job and have the car and do all the things. And now I have a kid who isn't as quick to want to get a job isn't as quick to get his license. And there's a part of me that's like, Come on, get on the ball. Like, you're 16 you want to do all these things. And there's the other part of me that's like, I want him to be a kid for as long as he can be. Because there's gonna get to be a point where he has to do this, he has to, but if he can just be a kid for a little bit longer, then maybe that's good. And I And that's, that's my battle right now. So I'm working on it. I'm working on it. And I just want to adopt more, so I don't know. I mean, yeah, I want to start at the teenager. Yes. I need to get this shit under control.

Marlena  

Yeah, and I just want dogs.

Deb G  

All right, so that's it.

Christy  

Yeah, I think so. We made it through this, this layer that that's the name of the episode. Yeah, there we go. Um, so yeah, so if you made it through, thank you for listening to the whole thing. We love you, we seriously do. And especially if you're able to follow our brains and our trains of thought. So this was another episode of a witch mystic and feminists, obviously, go to our website, W MF pod.com to access all of our past episodes, and to interact with us, and we're on Instagram and all the things but you can get all of our information there. And hopefully we will see you back next week. I say hopefully, because I hope you'll come back. We will be here regardless next Tuesday. Thank you. Bye bye.